10/2/09 Light Treatment, Luke heals computer--wow

I wake up at 9:30 and go through my whole routine. Afterwards, I am walking better.

I get on the scale and it's no good. I'm going to have to give up that yummy creal dish I love and go back to eggs. I read an article in the newspaper about a woman who was --I think about 700 lbs. She writes about her journey to a normal wieght. If she can do that, with very little help, I can do it to. My plan is to start making small changes. I know I'm not at my top health right now, so here's what I did today. I went back to an egg for breakfast. I fixed it with onion and mushrooms, and had it with toast and coffee. Lunch might be a turkey sandwich with a slice of cheese. Today I had the turkey with lettuce instead of cheese.

Also, I'm starting my cleanse which would help with other issues I've been having. So we'll see. I'm going to get a notebook (I love new notebooks) to record what I eat. That's one of the things that this woman did. She isn't Ruby but I'm kind of creating a diet role model for me--so I can use any name I want.

We'll see what the scale says in future days.

At 3 something I got started for Dr Logan's office. I was having a light treatment. The first one did help, so I'm hoping the second will be even more effective. I like Danika because she's natural and low key. Just herself. I do feel better afterwards but tired. Danika tells me that I should drink water and have a nap. I don't like to drink water, but I working with a new concept. I read an article by Eknath Easwaran, one of my idols. He talks about the daily battle between will and desire. The little demons, the voices of desire, attempt to trip up our will to do what we really want to do--what we really need to do. I'm working with this concept in relation to my diet goals.

Of course, the underlying goal is spiritual The stronger the will, the more the inner spirit can reveal itself.

Luke made a good decision today. I won't get into the details which are personal to him, but he is learning to honor himself and he did that today. I made him an extra special dinner to show my support.

Now more resting.