6/17/09 DrK, Pilates, Sweet Things, Natures Market

I don't exercise on Wed because of Pilates.  So I'm off to Dr K's on time.  I am still working on my challenge.  So I ask his advice.  You know,  I trust him and think of him as a second pastor in my life.  He reminded me that we are all part ugly.  His image was . . .well that the best of us are unclean in the eyes of God.  Yes,  we're his children but . . . . And I am certainly not the best.  I've no doubt been ugly and selfish and arrogant with the best of them.  So,  Dr. K reminded me to forgive as I want to be forgiven.  I don't have to visit with scorpions but I do have to forgive them for being themselves.  I'm still working on that.  

My sister told me about a situation in the life of someone who is near and dear to her.  This person and his wife were subjected to very rude and demeaning behavior from a close relative and his wife.  Barbie,  my sis,  told me that she tries to look at the wife (a nasty bitter and arrogant woman)  as doing her best.  It's not that you want to be her best friend,  but you accept who she is when it's necessary to hang with her.  She told me to forgive.  Hummm.  Is this a theme.  Also,  when I was discribing the situation to Barbie and complaining--wha  wha wha--my tire went into a hole shaking me up and roughing up the tire.

Barbie also said that my thinking was dark--falling into the trap of Satan.  I was on a roll for awhile--in the flow of grace and joy.  She warned me not to let the evil one pull me down.  In the end,  everything that happens is the will of God.  So what's the use of naming and blaming.  

I don't expect to get it over night,  but I'm trying.  If I could do it all at once,  I'd be a saint.  

I got to MM early.  I like talking to the secretary so that was fun.  MKate and I had a good lesson.  We're getting better.  My shoulders hurt a little,  both were broken but I'm working on more strength.  MKate and I love our lessons.  We both struggle (for different reasons) so it works for us to share a lesson.  

I go home for lunch,  to feed Durga and rest a bit.

At work,  there are three tightly packed boxes.  I get to work.  I like unpacking boxes --you have to be so focused that you have no time to think.  It's my meditation.

My old friend,  Linda,  has come back to NM to work.  She's fun,  so I'm really glad.  Some of the part timers look upon her as competition for time.  I'm glad that she has work in this hard economic time.  

End in Gratitude

I am so grateful for my job at Nature's Market.  I get all kinds of discounts and can afford the best vitamins and organic food.  I learn about  high tech research on health and healing,  the cutting edge of nutritional healing.  I get to meet the top minds in this profession and that gives me the best chance for keeping my body healthy and for helping keep my family healthy as well.  

I get to meet all kinds of interesting people and to actually help many of them.  I connect with many in the heart center.  And best of all,  I get to work with my BFF,  MKate ,  and her brilliant husband .