5/12/09/ Apointment with surgeon/ Dr L/Hatha Yoga

This morning I go back to Ortho Indy.  After the accident,  I told an Ortho Indy MD that I didn't want surgery.  Now I am back eating my words--9 hard years later.  Well,  I tried.  Maybe I could have tried harder?  Too late now.  

When I get there,  I find that I'm 1/2 hr late.  I'm afraid that they will send me home.  I sit down while they decide.  Luckily they do take me.  They take an xray.  A nurse comes to question me.  She's nice and encouraging.  We look at the xray.  I see the problem.  She says are you in pain?  And then she says that clearly I'm not a complainer.  The exray isn't pretty.  I don't want to describe it here.  It kind of made me sad.  

Doctor Fisher comes in.  He's nice.  He listens.  He says that it won't be too bad.  The recovery will be long,  but . . . .   what are my choices.  So I'm hoping to go through it.  I'm supposed to exercise 2x a day everyday before and after.  I'll have to be so careful.  So careful.  It's up to me.

Luke is with me.  I'm glad.  He spends his whole day.  We eat a quick breakfast/lunch then head for Dr Logan's new office in Fishers.  It's by chance that I have both appointments today.  Dr L is always anti surgery,  but I tell him about the xray and he understands.  He has a protocol for pre and post surgery.  It sounds good.  Like it will support me well.

I go home and read the book that Ortho Indy gave me.  This book is scary.  They're going to do all kinds of tests that I usually don't go for.  If I don't toe the line in recovery,  this thing can fall apart and put me back in surgery.  Also there are the long list of --this could happens.  I think about the drug ads on t.v.  that Luke and I make fun of because they have so many side effects. 

MKate comes to pick me up for class.  I decide to center my mind on the truth.  If God lives within and is the eternal part of me,  then my surgery and recovery should go very well.  

Bev and Jeff are there.  They come just as we get to M.M.   There is a student waiting for me.  She travels but comes to class when she can.  She's a deep and silent person.  She talks about her own surgery and how she beat the odds during her recovery.  You just have to want to.  You just have to create it.

Class flows.  Everyone goes within and peace is thick like pancake syrup.  I feel really wonderful.  I meditate without coughing.  

Afterwards,  Bev and Jeff invite MKate to join Luke and I for dinner at their new home,  and a movie.  We talk about Bev's amazing cooking skills.  It should be an experience.