I found out that Mike won't be doing our garden this year--for a variety of reasons.  So,  we're back to the drawing board.  We need someone--not too expensive--but very creative.  I have some ideas for a use of grasses and purple things with accents of other colors.  Things that birds can nibble on during the winter and play in during the summer.  

Today was a scary day.  Luke and I were seeing Dr H--who is more Western Med than we're used to.  I had some questions about my health.  Would Dr H think I was ready for surgery? Is there an alternative that I haven't thought of yet?  Could my miracle still happen.  And truthfully, 

 would I need to loose a huge amount of weight first.  Would he have some idea of why Luke gets his "problems? "  Could he help?  So many questions.  

MKate goes to Dr H as well.  She trusts him with big decisions.  So . . .   Luke and I take an hour drive.  We get to Dr H's office.  And yes,  it's Western Med.  Very scary for me.  I make Luke go first.  When he comes out,  he's not ecstatic.  He has somethings to think about,  and he needs to take a blood test.  Maybe his problems are made worse by his so low blood pressure.  We still have to work hard and to keep doing all that we're doing.  I pray that one day we'll know.  And this hard time will be over.  

I took my turn.  Luke came with me.  Dr H used to be my MD before he moved.  So it wasn't like going to a stranger.  But still.  There were so many things that concerned me. Dr H is so sweet.  He let me take my time.  He talked with me.  Yes,  those of you who know me--I'm over weight.  I could stand to lose 30lbs.  But he also said that I'm in good shape.  My daily exercise has made me muscular and physically strong.  So that's very good.  Another thing I worried about (personal),  very worried about,  turned out to be well within the range of normal.  I breathed a sigh of relief.  My sore throat and sinus thing is viral ,  so I didn't need an antibiotic.  That was good.  Now it's just a question of finding the right surgeon.  He told me what to look for and what to ask for.  I'm so glad that I went to Dr H.  It was the right move for me.  And I pray that it helps Luke as well.  

We came home to a business meeting.  We like our new business management guy,  Matt.  He's real and sincere.  Luke and I like him as a person.  He's honest and fun.  And he knows what he needs to know to help us get where we need to be for our retirement.  So for two and a half hours,  we ,  exhasted and kind of bored with business details,  listened to Matt talk.  And talk and talk and talk about numbers.  Sooo boring.  And yet so necessary to hear.  We missed Jeopardy.  But got to see "Chuck."  We ate a mix of left overs mixed with canned ,  organic turkey.  Yummy.

The bachlor's an idiot.  I hate him.  He picked one girl,  gave her a ring on t.v. and then switched.  So ugly.  I turned to "John and Kate Plus Eight."  That is a sweet and beautiful show.  A man and woman love each other.  They have a bunch of kids and take care of them.  It's dharma.